Hays, i love life! Lols. Life na mahirap, life na unpredictable, life that is challenging!
Still nasa stage pa kaming magkakapatid na naghihintay ng “maging” kapalaran ni bro frans. So far things are turning out positively coz his employment visa is soon going to be processed. He can make decisions now on his own, and of course with our guidance. In few days time, hopefully, we will have the final answer.
Two days back, mom called me with tears in her eyes telling me that she might undergo surgery because of her swelling ovary. She is bleeding for one week now, I don’t know how to explain this but I just hope she will be ok. My father suggested to get the second opinion of another ob, and if they have the same results and findings, Sunday or Monday will be the right time for her to be admitted to the hospital. I pray for you mom, do not shed tears, that is not what we need, we need you to be strong! We can make it! God is with us.
The night after my mom called, when I reach home, in my room, I cried and cried until I got tired, put myself to sleep eventually. I woke up with my eyes so sore and red. I felt so sick, feeling like throwing up and my stomach is acting up so terribly. From that time until the following day, my gastro enteritis is attacking me again. Yesterday evening it forced me to bring myself to the nearest hospital for it had weakened me. The doctor gave me 4 medicines to take for 5 days. So far, I am on a soft diet, meaning, lugaw, skyflakes, lugaw and lugaw and lots of liquid!
I will be facing a new challenge at work, but my boss is leaving soon. I am just thinking who will support me with the new task? Mahirap. Mahirap pag nasa environment ka ng di mo kilala kung sino ang totoong tao. Pagnasa isang sitwasyon ka na gusto mong matuto pero walang tutulong sayo. Self learning, yes I can, pero ang mali dito, pagmay mali ka, it will be a big deal. Pagmay nagawa kang outstanding, everyone is blind! Nice di ba? Kaya good luck to me..
Thinking of my situation, I cannot help but think of my family. When will this battle end? I am sure it won’t. But I told God, “hinay-hinay lang po, isa-isa lang, kakayanin ko naman lahat ito, wag lang sabay-sabay. at wag lang akong magkasakit…”